For awhile now I’ve played this song with hollow words and empty meaning simply because I liked the guitar part and because it used to mean something to me. Now, it means something again and it has moved me the way it once used to.
When I go down-Relient K
I’ll tell you flat out
It hurts so much to think of this
So from my thoughts I will exclude
The very thing that
I hate more than anything is
The way I’m powerless to dictate my own moods
I’ve thrown away
So many things that could have been much more
And I just pray
My problems go away if they’re ignored
But that’s not the way it works
When I go down
I go down hard
And i’ll take everything I’ve learned
And teach myself some disregard
When I go down
It hurts to hit the bottom
And I think of all the things that got me there
And think if only I had fought them
If and when I can clear myself of this clouded mind
I’ll watch myself settle down
Into a place where Peace can search me out and find
I’m so ready to be found
I’ve thrown away the hope I had in friendships
I’ve thrown away so many things that could have been much more
I’ve thrown away the secret to find an end to this
And I just pray that problems go away if they’re ignored
But that’s not the way it works
When I go down
I go down hard
And I’ll take everything I’ve learned
And teach myself some disregard
When I go down
It hurts to hit the bottom
And all the things that got me there
I think if only I had fought them
Any control I felt I had just slips right through my hands
As my ever presence conscious,
Shakes its head and reprimands me
It reprimands me
Then and there, I confess
I’ll blame all this on my selfishness
and yet you love me
this consumes me
And I’ll stand up again and do so willingly
You give me hope, and hope it gives me life
You touch my heavy heart, and when you do you make it light
As I exhale, I can hear your voice
and I answer you, though I hardly make a noise
From my lips, these words I choose to say
Seem pathetic, because they’re a fallen man’s praise
“I love you”
“Oh, God, I love you”
And life is now worth living,
If it’s only because of you
and when they say that I’m dead and gone
It won’t be further from the truth
When I go down
I lift my eyes to you
I won’t look very far
Because you’ll be there
With open arms
To lift me up again
To lift me up again
